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is it normal to be used to be alone ?
i don't have the feeling of needing someone in my life like i have lost the ability of feeling. it's hard when i feel like this. i just need to observe without talking. perhaps , i just need to spend a day on beach.sitting , walking and listening to my music.am neither sad nor happy but i thank my god for what i have, even for many people i don't have nothing , but i thank my god so much for giving me life and the power to stand again no matter how i feel now.
thank you my god and i send a big hugs to my best friend. ; )

when a woman cheats

by chance i have found this document about a woman who has cheated her beloved.it was intersting cause the woman was the cheater.a woman is an emotional person so it's hard to see her cheating someone who loves and treats her well.even for her reaction toward cheating is diffrent.when a real woman cheat her beloved she cannot go on on in the relationship cause it kills her inside.besides, her way to punish herself is to go away from her beloved even if she can be forgiven she can't forgive herself.when 2 persons love each other they cannot lie cause theirs conscience avoid them to hide feelings.

http://www.scribd.com/doc/1037/No-one-to-blame-but-myself

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i want to speak about an annoucment that i have read in yahoo about a weird job make it by austrian tourism which is to be a gardian of an austrian island.the salary is 1000 euros per hour !!!!

you have to be a good swimmer , speaking and writing english very well as the futur gardian will post pictures and comments in the insland's blog. this offer is open to all and the cv should be posted in website if this island. it's an amzing job but why the austrlian tourism has opened this strange offer for all people over the world ?

"living in island " sounds perfet when you feel that everything is a fake. to go faraway is the solution when you cannot accept some stuff and in the same time not to bother the other by your crazy thoughts. really, i hope if i can do it. i don't want to runway but i have nothing to stay for expect my family.if they accept then i can go with their blessing.it's a dream ............. i beg my god to make it true.

forgive

i know it's too late to say happy new year. i hope this year will be an extreme makeover.i miss my blog.i would like to speak about forgiveness.can we forgive all the time and no matter the pain caused by a person ? "we have to forgive" . "everyone has right to have the second chance".these phrases sounds perfect but does we do this all the time? i guess no, sometimes we are unfair with " forgiveness " cause we can give it to the wrong person.in fact , forgiveness can be used against us when it is given to some kind of persons that their job is to use the forgiveness of the others for theirs benefit or to give pain. besides, we can give the "second chance" to one and we connot give it to the other one.so, we unfair with "forgiveness". everybody can make mistake but do all mistakes can be forgiven ? really , i would like to know " forgiveness" is based on what? based on reason , the person , the situation or just forgive.

for me , depends on the person's intention.it's hard to forgive a pain caused by an expected person as a close friend, relatives or your beloved.to be hurted from a close person who knows you it's so painful cause the word " close" means he knows what can bother you so he has to be aware of his deeds except when his intentions is to help in this situation i have to forgive with no reasons. i hope if i can forgive all the time but sometimes pains are stronger than me ,so, only time can erease it.

palestine

hi, i would like to say to palestine :
my dear palestine no matter the numbers of injuries and the rape of your land you will win , you know why? cause my god is with you. to be free it may cost generations and so many victims but the passion for this land and the dream to be free again is a blessing that give to genarations to be more faithful to the dream and an internal source of power to fight for this believe and it's a curse for the enemy cause it gives him more fear and more Sense of insecurity that makes him more and more weak no matter the number of Massacres he have done.my dear palestine you are an iternal and holy land .don't be afaid my dear palestine you are the symble of Steadfastness no matter how of your children died everday but nothing can destroy your faith .

bingo

am the stupidest person in the world. even am sure of my beliefs and i like how i am but i say for the people who considers me "nothing" i am the stupidest cause i thought that am an intersting person for them. what a silly girl i am.anyway , am not giving up cause i believe that good things lives no matter how it takes to be admit but at the end " bingo" not for me but for those who sacrifise their lives , theirs dreams and theirs right for theirs surrounding.

mmmmmmmmmmmm

hi, i can't say am sad but there is a deep sadness that doesn't avoid me to see how life is colourful even with some cloudy moment but it's life and that is it charm. i miss my best friend but he is so busy that he didn't answer my messages . he had sent me a message a week ago and an sms for the eid i was so happy. however, i feel sad cause we haven't spoken for a month since i went to tangier . i know i haven't to be greedy and selfish in my feeling toward the other but it's me. i can deny my care , i can't pretend to be ok cause he doesn't care about my messages as he was before . if i can do like he does that it's means i don't care and this fault.when i care i care from my deep but i have to respect the line that he did i can't across it cause i don't like to oblige the other to care for me too. i care and i don't wait the care of the other but in deep i hope that.anyway, am just outleting what bother me inside cause it my best friend but unfortunatly am not even a close friend ,however, we share ,as he told me, personals stuff. as i said before i want just to be in the backstage of his life but with my own life.miss you my best and god bless you.
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