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dimanche 10 août 2008

new day

hi now, am following the olympics games they are wonderful.i hoped if i was there even as participent or as tourist.haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa china the magic land.for nothing new .it's less than common days.rouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuutine.am fed up but i am trying to change my life by finding job as it's the first step but nothing.i believe in god.oneday it will change.thank you my god

vendredi 8 août 2008

og

hi, today the openning of olympique games . am happy cause am used to follow this event.i like gym , swim ....the openning was fabulous i have never seen like this the chinese people are amazing cause they like perfection in theirs jobs.gooooooooooooooooood luck morocco,south korea and china.

mercredi 6 août 2008

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hi, when i wrote the real problem that am living , now , i feel better cause i outlet what is bothering me.the situation is still parelyse no actions.

lundi 4 août 2008

part 2

hi , i will continue what i said yesterday.besides , i have some problems and i didn't tell him as he is absent and am not used to tell.so, he thinks that i live in harmoney in comparaison with him.how can i bare a person who becomes silent when we discuss about what is going on. i know he is a good guy , he's helpful and patient , funny and has a big heart but the silence that what i hate on him.no answer.i can't anymore.i don't like his work but i accepted even he is far from me but i accepted cause he deserves but the only thing that never i can accept is to be deny it cause it's make a gap and kill your emotions it's right to be silent when the other is angry but not always we have to disscus our problrms and in order not to lose connexion as we are far from each other.he spent 3 weeks to 1 month without calling or sending sms and suddenly, he sent me sms as nothing happened and when i blame him he doesn't answer and leave me for another period as he's avoiding my discussing.so, am i wrong? does i have right to balme him for his absence and silence?have i right to se my life and leave him?.i don't know , am not prepered to live another relationship but there someone who i addmired for 8 years and i haven't seen him almost for 3 years and when i met him he becomes more and more attracted to me but just in silence.i don't want another experience i have suffred enough but i respect this guy so much and am fraid that he will tell me.i know one thing that i will be clear with him as am used to. i don't like to hide but i can't leave the other untill he says that cause i don't like to hurt anyone even it can cost me the chance to have a true love cause i have faith in my god he knows that never i can betrayel and it is better for me to stay alone than to betrayel.besides there is another one who want to married me , he told my mum and she agree but i refused for many reasons including what i said before even he seems to be a good guy but i don't want to be unfair with him even he believes in me but even he met me never dared to talk to me.i don't know something makes me afraid.am wrong to refuse someone seems to be good only because you don't like it or you have relationship or you feel unable to get married even you have 30.it is a sacred relationship , i prefer to be alone than just get married to saticfid the other , i want to be conviced even my choise can be wrong but it is my responsibility i can bare.i have faith in my god and in my inttention.i want just live in peace.i don't want to hurt anyone.

dimanche 3 août 2008

no chance

hi, i don't know who to start but i have never imagined that i will live such experience in love. am commited to a man for 3 years and since febrery our relationship is collapsing cause his brother abreaod was arrested with friends in car which was stealed by his friend.he confessed that he didn't know that his friend done it.anyway, he called my fiance in order to send him money to the lawyer just to say what is going on.of course , my fiance send all he gatherd to get married to his brother. i appreciate what he did to his brother but this one doesn't deserves this sacrifice cause he has spent all his period in spain in alcohol in girls and he know very well if he don't work he will be back to morocco with no futur.that has made me very angry.i knew that money will be insufficient but he sent it all.the problem on my fiance is when he is in problem he forgets everything and make it bigger than it is.so , as he is far from me cause his work , he started sending me sms saying that our futur is destroyed cause this problem as my fiance is a modest man it will be very hard to regather money again.i blamed him cause he hasen't thought on me as i am his partener in this life.even this , i sent him sms to ask about his problem and he started to be less intersted on me and even this i tryied hard not to give up but ...he hasn't made effort to live our relationship.so, as i used not to have any information about and even this i sent him sms to ask.as to call was hard cause his work and he didn't call me.tomorrow to be continued.

samedi 2 août 2008

forgive

hi , today i gave lyrics of dixie chiks's song called "Not Ready To Make Nice".it says :

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I'm still waiting
I'm through with doub
tThere's nothing left for me to figure out
I've paid a price
And I'll keep paying
I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
i'm still mad as hell
andI don't have time to go round
and round and roundIt's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should
I know you said
Can't you just get over it
It turned my whole world around
And I kind of like it
I made my bed and I sleep like a baby
With no regrets and I don't mind sayin'
It's a sad sad story when a mother will teach her
Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger
And how in the world can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they'd write me a letterS
ayin' that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over
I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should
I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round
and roundIt's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should
Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everythingBut I'm still waiting.

i want say if always we shave to forgive or even take time to forgive.or perhaps it depends on the situation and the person concerning.

vendredi 1 août 2008

my town

hi , today i gave sime pictures of my town "tetouan" which is situeted in the north of morocco.