what's going on

hi , for these days i don't i find myself able to outlet what i have inside.that is why i try to express myself through songs that effect on me. somtimes i feel like am hypnotise , i want to do a small project and i have so many ideas but am unable to start and to choose an idea.i don't know realy am confused like am waiting somthing that avoid me to start anything.i like to make crafts and it is my inspiration for my project.regardless, i am fighting i don't want to be morbid by these feelings.i wish to be free from this emotion's prison.i hope so . i beg my god.thank you