am i wrong ?

hi, it is hard to be strong and patient to be weak and hardworker to be sad and happy.i don't know i have all these emotions in the same time.but i know the source of this empty that is am jobless unuseful.i am trying to do somthing but am looser.my problem is that i am unable to do somthing that i don't like i see arround me i found the majority are making things that they don't like and they are going on.but for me it is impossible.we have one life why am going to do things that i don't like.it's very hard for me to do.does money desrves to do things for it just to have it?always i like to do what i want what i need.studies for me is pleasure for my soul not to get marks.job for me is way to be useful to my society and for myself.money is important but not to the extend to sell my life.why such paper has this big impact on us.why it manages our life our dreams.like tracy chapman said money is paper and ink.really i need to work i need mony in order to help my family but i cannot do work that i don't like at least.so, am i wrong? am wrong cause i my life is so imprtant for me and i appreciate what god has given to me.life