i'm on strike

i'm on strike untill my best friend forgive me.today , i have spent 6 hours waiting to see the green light on his statut not to talk to him because i have promised him not to talk untill he talks.seeing the green light give a hope and i don't feel alone even if i haven't talked to him.i know , i'm crazy person but it's a choice for me not a waste of time.i can be busy and i'm too but nothing can replace the imprtance of my best friend in my life.

sorry my best friend (2)

things still the same , i feel that i have lost my best friend.i was unable even to make a comment that i have seen the 2 matches of "nadal" vs murray and djokovic and i have enjoyed it .it's hard not to tell him that , not to share with him my enjoy even am not a good follower of tennis but sometimes there are players whom can attract you to see and enjoy this game.really , am very sad.i can bear so many in my life but the pain of loosing my best friend is .......

sorry my best friend

yestarday was a very bad day.it's was a furious day full of tension from all side but i didn't expect that the tension will touch even my friendship.it was an explosive conversation with no damage but i confess that it was my fault because i have sent him some silly messages just to laugh with him but i was misunderstood.in fact , in these messages i was a little bit angry because sometimes when i catch him in the chat and we start chatting, suddenly, he became off line. i know there are reasons but when things happen twice and there is no explaination and even the tone of his messages are not the same.so obviously, i will doubt but even that i tried to push away from my head these silly ideas.ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhha, finally; when i had started with him the chat yesterday, he was very angry and "holalalalalalalaal" if i was in front of him "god help me".he blamed me for my negative way of inventing events and his reaction.sincerly , i was somehow happy because the conversation was not offecially.he said what he thinks about some of my deeds but..... i have felt was not because we are friend but i felt that he was somehow fed up from caring and chatting.i think i have accrossed the red line.i imagine how he was angry from sending him stupid messages in the wrong time . " i'm really sorry my best friend for being so noisy". so , i have decided not to talk to him untill he do as a way to punish myself and not to disturb him at all.sincerly , i miss him so much but it's better to stay away.

i came back

haaaaaaaaaaaaaa , my dear blog i miss you.today i brought a lyrics of linkin park's song called " leave out all the rest ".

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest


Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made

I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you're asking me
I want you to know


When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are


When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are

" rejetable friend"

i want to talk about a thing that has made me laugh.it's not a big deal but i wanted to mentioned to myself.it was a birthday of one of my friends , it's a not a close one but in any event or celebration i'm used to sent greeting to all people that i know.so, i was the first one who sent him birthday's greeting on facebook. so, what have made me laugh is that he has sent thanks to all his friends that have greeted him except me." oooooooooooooops".i think i'm invisible : ) .

most of the time i wish if i could return to my old character.i girl with endeless smile ' i'm still' but in the past i used to hide all my feelings and emotions. i was living into not out and i'm still but less than before.most of people when you treat them with kindness , they consider you either a weak or stupid person or someone has nothing to do.for me , a weak person is unable to make a choice , unable to be responsible of its mistakes , unable to be patient and unable to decide.

i don't like to say a good person but i prefer to say a person with good intentions.in fact, " good person" for me, is the one whatever you can make to him he will be like" an angel" with you and that 's"oooooooooops"incredible.however, a person with good intentions, can be angry or hurted or upset or even can hate you but in the end , he won't be able to make bad thing to you..not becuase he cannot but he doesn't want to do it.i think most of people like to be treated as "camera rejetable" in frensh it means that they can be used just once.in other words, persons who likes to have fun with them but as long they are present, so, when they went theirs job is finished.unfortuntaly, i cannot treat people like this not cause i can't but cause i'm humen being and it's has no meaning for me.

happy valentine's day

happy valentine's day for lovers.i want to say that valentine should be everyday .in each problem that couples can face.it's not a flower or box of choclate.it's how to go on in couple and how to respect each other. it's more than affection for the other , it's how to build a friendship into the relationship.it's more than say ' i love you'.it's how to make each single day as the first time. how to share not only feeling but also the goal.to exchange her world with his world and make one kingdom.it's just to treat each other as humen being and as you soulmate.it's so simple but it's needs a true heart and a true hand to take a lifetime journey with the true person.

enfinnnnn

i'm glad and part of my worries has come down cause my brother has found a job and seeing a brightness in his eyes makes me feel like a huge stone was over my back.i was very worried about my brother's futur but now, thank you my god. even for my parents , i see in theirs eyes a hope and ability to move on.thank you my god.