joyful sadness

hi, today i want talk about a type of sadness that i call " joyful sadness".it means for me, a colorful sadness that doesn't need to be in dark room or wear black clothes or even have sad face , it's just feeling sad without loosing hope or the ability to feel and see the beauty around you.the sadness that gives you the mood to listen to chillout music or to go either to the sea or a walk in forest , to be in nature.sadness for me is not to cry or hate fate or even blame the other , it's Self-examination ,revision of my mistakes, to be more sure of my decisions and thoughts.the ability to save what remains for me, to give to myself a lesson , to know the wisdom of these experiences.

cherry ghost

hi, i gave today a song called "people help people" by cherry ghost.i like this song :

God knows what is hiding in that weak and drunken heart
I guess you kissed the girls and made them cry
those hardfaced queens of misadventure
God knows what is hiding in those weak and sunken eyes
a fiery throng of muted angels
giving love and getting nothing back
People help the people
and if your homesick, give me your hand and i'll hold it
people help the people
and nothing will drag you down
oh and if I had a brain, oh and if I had a brain
I'd be cold as a stone and rich as the fool
that turned, all those good hearts away
God knows what is hiding in that world of little consequence
behind the tears inside the lies
a thousand slowly dying sunsets
God knows what is hiding in those weak and drunken hearts
I guess the loneliness came knocking
No on needs to be alone, oh save me
People help the people
and if your homesick, give me your hand and i'll hold it
people help the people
nothing will drag you downoh and if I had a brain, oh and if I had a brain
I'd be cold as a stone and rich as the foolthat turned, all those good hearts away
People help the people
and if your homesick, give me your hand and I'll hold it
people help the people
nothing will drag you downoh and if I had a brain, oh and if I had a brain
I'd be cold as a stone and rich as the foolthat turned, all those good hearts away.

memory

hi , i haven't written for a long time. i don't know what to say, well, i have a problem of remembering simples things like , for exemple, the name of some actors. i was discussing with my b friend about movies and he asked me about bernie mac mat,so, i said that i don't know him but in fact i know him but i have never seen his name or i haven't noticed his name in his sitecom or in his movies.so, am somehow upset cause i like his acting and i felt sorry for him when he died but what makes me upset why sometimes i feel like am losing my memory in unsuitable moments. i hope am not the only one who suffer from this problem ,really, it bother me.i need a trip to a far island not to runway but to rebuild myself.oooooooooh my god i need to realize my simple dreams am not looking for wealth or have the latest cellphone or.......

i just need a peaceful and useful life in the right path.thank you my god

anyway

hi, today i give you a song called " anyway" by a country singer called martina mcbride.it's an amzing song even am not real fan of country music but i love some of them like dolly parton.it's says:

You can spend your whole life building something from nothing
One storm can come and blow it all away
Build it anyway
You can chase a dream that seems so out of reach and you know it might not ever come your way
Dream it anyway
Chorus:
God is great, but sometimes life ain't good
And when I pray it doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway, I do it anyway
This world's gone crazy and it's hard to believe that tomorrow will be better than today
Believe it anyway
You can love someone with all your heart, for all the right reasons, and in a moment they can choose to walk away
Love 'em anyway
Repeat Chorus
You can pour your soul out singing a song you believe in that tomorrow they'll forget you ever sang Sing it anyway,
yeah sing it anyway I sing, I dream, I love, anyway

this is the video of the song :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1FdB5Adws78

poeeeeeeeeeeeeems

hi, today is the 15th of ramadan , the time runs fast.anyway, i give today a poem by unknown author.it's says :
If I could catch a rainbow
I would do it just for you,
And share with you its beautyOn the days you're feeling blue
If I could build a mountain
You could call your very own,
A place to find serenity,
A place to be alone
If I could take your troubles
I would toss them in the sea,
But all these things I'm findingAre impossible for me
I cannot build a mountain,
Or catch a rainbow fair,
But let me be what I know best,A friend who's always there.

and onther one by jenny yu :

You remind me of a flower,
Pretty, inside and outside.
A reason why people smile everyday,A gift to all.
You remind me of chocolate,
Luscious and sweet.
Someone people can turn to in crisis,
Loved by all.
You remind me of a teddy,
Cute and huggable.
Someone people feel comfortable with,
Special to all.
You remind me of a balloon,
Happy and bouncy.
Someone people can have fun with,
Enjoyed by all.
You remind me of a lot of things,
But nothing can compare to the real person,
A friend I can look up to,
Cherished by me.

blog

hi, i want to talk about the blog.for the first time, i was little a bit afraid to write on a blog.for 2 reasons.firstly, cause it's hard for me to outlet what i have inside also cause i don't know how to express my ideas.secondly, cause i was afraid from the goal of a blog.what is the positives and the negatives of a blog.so , i tried to read some blogs in order to understand the meaning and the aim of it.in fact, i find it a suitable way to express your idea without , necessary, identify who you are cause what is important is your subjects and the way of your writing.i know sometimes your ideas can be against ( that's the negative side) you but, in my view, you have to know the limit of the show.it's means, i don't have to write everything about my thoughts not to lie but to leave some for yourself as privacy . so, a blog , internet , tv , websites...etc.all these icones of globalization and development can be very vey useful for many poeple of all domain but can be a Serie killer for those who use it in bad way to destroy and kill person's life.

genghis khan's movie

hi , today i want to talk about genghis khan's movie who is nominated to the oscar.i really want to see the movie cause it's about genghis khan who is an historical leader and there are many stories and sypnossis about his character and his life.so , i was always intersting on the controversial Personalities where we can find a huge stories about them but no true facts about theirs real life, which is due to some political Interests.we don't know the real reasons of history's Falsification .so , i hope to see it soon cause am so curious to see the new view about his life.

glad

hi, .yesterday i met my best friend in chat so am not worried anymore.through our disscusing i really realized what is missing on me.in fact, sharing what i love and what i like to do with my friend.i have always lived sharing with my friends what they like but noone shared with me what i like. i know they love me but noone tried to share with me my passion for things.for exemple, i like to go once in week to the cineme, read books, makes crafts or listenning to my favorite music.they are my close friends but we don't have things in common just general thing as we are girls for exemple, cooking,clothes...girl's stuff but i don't like to spend all my time talking about it.i can find my passion in simple thing that can be stupid for the others.as diy or handcrafts,my close friends can do diy it but not as passion but as duty.so, that's one of reasons of considering my friend as my best friend.he trys to know me but it's not the real reason cause the real reason is from god , chemestry we don't invent.sometimes, we admire and love someone but he or she cannot give us the same feel cause it's emotional we don't have control on it but we can appreciate and respect.thank you my god for giving me the love of my friends and i hope never disappointed them.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hi, it was a hard day cause i have accidentelly poured a glass of water over my keyboread.so i waited my brother to buy one as it's night and ramadan noone is openned just his friend.i was very angry but now am less angry :( cause google doesn't want to work now.anyway,i have nothing to say today cause am unable to think or to realize what is happening. :(

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i don't know but am worried about him but i can't do anything just wait to answer my message.i don't want to impose myself.he left a comment in facebook that he is tired and he needs to rest.i hope it's just physical rest.i don't want to bother him with my questions even i consider him as my best friend but i don't have right to insist on him cause This is one of his fiancée would have the right to do so.There are limits that i must not exceed.so, i will wait.:(

poems

hi, what to say no words.i miss .........anyway, i gave a poem by Brittani Kokko.it says :

Standing by,All the way.
Here to help you through your day.
Holding you up,
When you are weak,
Helping you find what it is you seek.
Catching your tears,
When you cry.
Pulling you through when the tide is high.
Just being there,
Through thick and thin,
All just to say, you are my friend.

there is another one by Autymn Skillings :

There's nothing as nice as someone who shares,your laughter, your secrets, your wishes and cares,someone who's there through your good times and tears,who stays by your side as your friend through the years.

songs

hi. i gave a lyrics of a song that i like called "drops in the ocean" by the storm.it says :
As we walk in the morning light
always looking for forgiveness
in our hearts
As we hide in the garden ever after
we will never give a reason
there is always something better
But I know
that there will never be someone quite like you and I
you promise
that no one never will come between the two of us
the two of us
I'll be there through all of your worries
i will stand through all of your tears
Just when you think that hope
it has left you for another
don't you cry, baby don't you cry
Some might say we are breaver than brave
but it's a matter of believing in your heart
It's such a shame
that you don't know what you're missing
'till it's gone
I've been told that nothing will last forever
But I know
that there will never be someone quite like you and I
you promise
that no one never will come between the two of us
the two of us
I'll be there through all of your worries
i will stand through all of your tears
Just when you think that hope
it has left you for another
don't you cry, baby don't you cry.

i added another lyrics of a song which i have no words for it.it's called ha mang yeo by alessandro safina.it's the ost of korean drama called "dae jang geum".really, it makes me cry even it hard for me to cry but it's an emotional song.this is the transaltion of the song in english:

Icy shades of blue
I’ve been true to you
Shaped my world on “soon”
Prayed to ghostly moons
Deep and dark it preys
Bleak and stark, in greys
Love’s a shark at bay
Til your heart’s betrayed
Oh, the curse of men and war
My hero’s cry is empty, forlorn
(But) in the silence I conceed
(sic)My heart can’t flee
This hopeless dream must be or vanish
Foolish love

Once you promised distant shore
And oe’r the waves you’d lift me once more
Now my pain brings no reward
Your fate’s bound and sworn
From afar I wish you near
And with each breath, I tremble with fear
For in spite of how I bleed
My heart can’t flee
This hopeless dream must be or vanish
Foolish love
[End segment (sic)]My heart can’t fleeThis foolish love.
if want to hear the song :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lmlKtBPbIAc

happy

hi, really am shocked , i feel ashame cause my best friend have read all my dairy and the same time am emotional and happy that he read it.he is the last one who i wanted to read my dairy not from the bad side but i don't want him to think that am showing my admiration for him.i don't want him to feel obliged to give the same emotions that i have for him that's why i was afraid to give him my blog.without thinking i gave him my blog i swear i didn't mean to show him how he is dear to myself.itwas over me.really, i appreciate his comments and the way he treats me.thank you

olalalalalalala

hi, today i want talk about my best friend.today i met him in the chat i was so happy not cause i talked to him but also because i felt that i haden't lost our friendship and i believed in my hope to met him again even in chat.it means to me so much.i have no words to express it.it more than emotionel needs it's life that we are loosing cause jobs, globalization,wars, techno,money.for many poeple they can see me as dreamer but in fact, am insisting on my humanity, my right to feel , to be a humen.i want to live more than survive cause we can survive but it's hard to live.when you have time to see the sky and stars,to see the moonlight.simple things that can touch us in deep.thank you my god for everything.thank you

gooooooood news

hi, now i feel better my best friend answered me he was just busy.am happy i was worried that i can loose his friendship for nothing. he is my treasure after my family.my ex-fiance also told me that as he was unfair by the fate he was unfair with me, he knows that it's his fault cause i gave him many chances.for his brother he still has 4 month in jail and he has made a credit for 3 years.i told him i hope that you brother deserves this sarifice.in my deep, i hope he deserved cause it can gives hope to my ex-fiance to live his life again.i beg my god.now, we are in ramadn this holly month.this spiritual month.i like so much.thank you my god.