ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

aigoo,the light still red.

i miss you so much my dear friend

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red and red red light.............................. :(

reeeeeeeeeeeeeeed light

aigoo, the light still red. i miss him sooooooooo much but from one hand , i think is better because i will be used not to talk to him because oneday inchallah he will go abroad or he will get married or in relationship so, i will be used not to talk to him.really , i want to go far away....................

thank you my god for everything.

aigooooo

aigoo, the light still red.i know i am crazy to wait my friend each day for 5 or 6 hours just to see the green light.but it's me i care or i don't care.is he sooooooo busy?is he busy and still angry with me ? is he busy and tired? is he busy and busy and ....... i hope he is just busy and not angry from me even if i think as he is busy the last thing to think about it is me and my crazy ideas.aigoo, aigoo..
i miss sooooooooo much my busy best friend

painful hope

aigooo, ................nothing today. i am living a painful hope. the light still red and to have a hope that he is going to talk to me is painful because each day i hope to see the green light so, you wait and wait ...........in the end , red light.......... is red light. so, you become sadder than yesterday, so........ it is a painful hope.
aigooooooo my dear friend.

happy bithday to me and happy birthday to mum's best friend

aigooooooooo, today is my birhtday......... tomorrow is the birthday of my best friend's mother so i say " happy birthday to you". i hoped if he had rememberd my birthday but he has problem with dates.if it had happened it will like the emotion that i had felt when my mother's aunt gave me a musical box when i was 12 years old it was the thing that i always had dreamed to have but i have never say it before.so, when i had seen the musical box i cried and since then , i have never felt that feeling again.anyway, life goes on............... :( :)

i'm on strike

i'm on strike untill my best friend forgive me.today , i have spent 6 hours waiting to see the green light on his statut not to talk to him because i have promised him not to talk untill he talks.seeing the green light give a hope and i don't feel alone even if i haven't talked to him.i know , i'm crazy person but it's a choice for me not a waste of time.i can be busy and i'm too but nothing can replace the imprtance of my best friend in my life.

sorry my best friend (2)

things still the same , i feel that i have lost my best friend.i was unable even to make a comment that i have seen the 2 matches of "nadal" vs murray and djokovic and i have enjoyed it .it's hard not to tell him that , not to share with him my enjoy even am not a good follower of tennis but sometimes there are players whom can attract you to see and enjoy this game.really , am very sad.i can bear so many in my life but the pain of loosing my best friend is .......

sorry my best friend

yestarday was a very bad day.it's was a furious day full of tension from all side but i didn't expect that the tension will touch even my friendship.it was an explosive conversation with no damage but i confess that it was my fault because i have sent him some silly messages just to laugh with him but i was misunderstood.in fact , in these messages i was a little bit angry because sometimes when i catch him in the chat and we start chatting, suddenly, he became off line. i know there are reasons but when things happen twice and there is no explaination and even the tone of his messages are not the same.so obviously, i will doubt but even that i tried to push away from my head these silly ideas.ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhha, finally; when i had started with him the chat yesterday, he was very angry and "holalalalalalalaal" if i was in front of him "god help me".he blamed me for my negative way of inventing events and his reaction.sincerly , i was somehow happy because the conversation was not offecially.he said what he thinks about some of my deeds but..... i have felt was not because we are friend but i felt that he was somehow fed up from caring and chatting.i think i have accrossed the red line.i imagine how he was angry from sending him stupid messages in the wrong time . " i'm really sorry my best friend for being so noisy". so , i have decided not to talk to him untill he do as a way to punish myself and not to disturb him at all.sincerly , i miss him so much but it's better to stay away.

i came back

haaaaaaaaaaaaaa , my dear blog i miss you.today i brought a lyrics of linkin park's song called " leave out all the rest ".

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest


Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made

I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you're asking me
I want you to know


When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are


When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are